Trauma

How do I heal my cellular level from the trauma I have been through?

What you have experienced and its effects are translated into wisdom as you integrate and heal. Your trauma was foundational. It rocked all that you had put into place as a way of having a life that was conducting light and love into this world. You set this up for yourself with the need to have a good, full, happy life.

Where life was not happy, you tried to create a counter-balancing reality, without healing and integrating the experiential effects of the unbalanced situations you were trying to change by constructing an alternative reality. Your need was valid; your way of creating its fulfillment resulted in breakdown of your constructed “solution”. You fell into what was underlying your need to have life different than it was. Your efforts collapsed, along with all that you were trying to “counter” with these efforts. Devastation, deep despair… childhood feelings of helplessness… and remorse. You registered all of this, consciously, without being able to fix it or leave what was going on within YOU. Your trauma brought you to your knees. You had to open into your inner reality, feel it and allow yourself to grieve the loss you felt as a result of circumstances and emotional expressions beyond your control and out of your control.

We read that you have moved out of “control” and into a greater power to recognize your own needs, your inner connection and your power for choice. Your “fall” has brought you deeper into your own energy source and your own capacity to carry it consciously in the body. When you let down into the body, the living time-space continuum connected into the One Life of this Earthly system registers our real power in light within. When we move out of ourself to fix the outer reality, we cannot receive our own living Life and Light as we are here to do. When we believe that our answer is outside of our immediate living light system, the higher frequency energies cannot become realized within us; they are dependent upon our call for the inner light to take its place within and neutralize our system of belief.

To believe is to separate from what is REAL and present within us. Belief is a construct that we create out of need to have a structure that holds us out of our conditioned and conditioning experience of imbalance and separation. Belief gives us a way to feel protected and exempt from the overwhelm of our experience in earlier, immature times when we were dependent upon others for our survival. Belief holds us in a way that we have the illusion of needs being met or fantasies becoming real. This has its place and is not the way for a full life to be experienced and expressed. There comes a time when we move beyond thought and what it has created within us into the radiance of Soul awakening and reconfiguring our structural receptivity and response ability. While we hold to belief, this process is held in latency.

Your structure of belief crashed and this is necessary. You had reached a level where you had moved as much within you into seeing as was possible, within the created structure of desire and belief that you had created. You were not able to come deeper into yourself had you remained in all that was operating.

You have come into a grace (higher frequency) order, giving you a sense operating from a less stressful place inside. Your order works inside YOU and not in your world. What you have kept going needed to break down. It was overdue to fall. You are in a time of potential, bearing labours within birth. You are coming into greater awakening. Beware of your old tendencies to look outside for healing light. It comes from inside.

You have opened yourself within humbleness where you cannot do what you decided was to be done. Really, you don’t know what is to be done. You can only open within for the Living Process in Being that you ARE. You thus reside in Power, Living Power, connected within YOUR system that is a viable and necessary part of the Cosmic Whole Being.

You heal. You integrate your experience. You claim your place within Life as Oneness. You do this within your own system, which is part of ALL system. The ALL is here. Nowhere else can you connect within Source. You open where you are, as you are, right now in this moment in all time. You are the foundation for you healing conditioning within you. When you “want into the future”, you separate yourself from what IS, and that includes future NOW.

When we hold ideas for the future, these create whirlpools or shadows inside the energetic Being. Your visualization needs to recognize what IS NOW, possibly what IS both manifest and un manifest, register that the intelligence that operates through all Life IS, NOW (manifest and un manifest). What you are experiencing is a part and has place within the ALL that IS, NOW.

Intend into the embrace you are held within. Intend into the way of Light/Life/Love, opening every all, all of its experiences, all of its undigested realities, giving you a bath within the intelligence THAT IS, where you are PART of the Whole it operates and you surrender into its wisdom. You cannot determine the results or outcomes but you can receive the gift of Being with Light/Life/Love connected and received. Your experiences are experiences; not you. ThYour healing comes of registering your relationship within Oneness in Being, here, as a communion in Cosmic Being. The unfoldment occurs. Where there is mis-in-formation, your flow will be affected as you embrace the “What IS” of that experience in-form, crystallized. When this occurs, BE WITH what IS, see and feel and breathe into it. Awareness within the body, embracing the disturbance in flow, opening into receptivity and gentle inquiry as what has been isolated, separated, judged, harmed, unfelt comes into conscious awareness. This must be done without agenda, without predetermined idea of what should be. Life works out the flow. Where you closed will be opened and integrated.

This is done within you by the WILL or intelligence of the WHOLE not by the personal will or effort. Personal will submits into Life in its process, recognizing the Greater Whole and choosing to stay within THAT and its process within the individualized system of YOU. You register this when you stay alert yet relaxed, connected within and available. When this state is “normal”, your sense of what IS reflects appropriate response ability in what happens, what generates, what releases, on-going. You are in the healing you request.